The projects that needed wrapping up will still be here when I return in a few days. The couple I haven’t started yet, will also be here. I’ll be able to finish those up over the weekends. In the meantime, I also need to expand my circle even if it remains mostly virtual since we’re certainly not done with this pandemic. This winter will be the season of Masks 2.0, and I’m already ordering new ones.
Yet, I want to get to know new people, find a roommate, and perhaps even start dating a little. Experiences in the past sent me into full retreat from friends and romantic partners. I have to admit, as difficult as these years have been, I did need the time to have a better idea of who I am, what I want, and where I see myself going. I don’t expect people to be perfect, but I do want people around me that are supportive and improving because that’s what I’m endeavoring to do.
I’ve noticed that all too often we settle. We simply tread water and grow weary because we can sustain that for only so long. Eventually, we have a choice: pull ourselves out of the water or slowly start sinking. I’m choosing the former.
This summer, one idea has come to my attention again and again, said in many different ways. It’s best summed up by Marianne Williamson’s famous quote from her book, “A Return to Love: Reflections on the Principles of ‘A Course in Miracles’.”
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, ‘Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?’ Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”