The Roller Coaster

I went from being angry to feeling better and even feeling happy. Then the next day, I woke up crying. I managed to get through the workday, grateful that it was a day I worked from home. But by the end of the day, I was exhausted. An hour-nap later, I woke up refreshed like... Continue Reading →

Good Days and Bad Days

The thing with grief is that there are good days and bad days. Indeed, sometimes it comes so fast that there is a good moment and a bad moment followed by good moment. It's the type of roller coaster ride that leaves you dizzy and nauseous. Yet, each time you swoop downward, you know you... Continue Reading →

The Challenge of Release

The day I was in a car accident back in July, I started experiencing tingling in my lower leg and foot. Now, two months later and with chiropractic care, it's still there. The good part is that the sciatica is settled down, so I'm not in a lot of pain anymore. My doctor also made... Continue Reading →

Not So Bitter Partings

Today, I took a different approach than I have before, and it worked much better. I'm not so emotionally drained and exhausted. I'm feeling like I'm on much more solid ground. So what did I do differently? First, I had also noticed how heavy my place felt today. Almost oppressive. Another thing I did was... Continue Reading →

Convergence

So working on the physical was a good idea. Then working on the spiritual was good idea. Now, to bring both together. It's not mind and body, but physical and spiritual; intellect and emotion. Like the moon is full and then new again and again as it waxes and wanes pulling the tides. Yet, they... Continue Reading →

Reinventing Yourself

I had a woman speak to me about grief lately. She said what she learned when she was widowed was that it's like you have to reinvent yourself without that person. In many ways, I do feel like that. No matter how old your kids get, you're still their parent. No matter how old our... Continue Reading →

Late Summer Blessings

While I mourn my losses, I also give gratitude for my blessings. I have supportive friends and a workplace that's very accommodating to my needs. I'm super grateful that my old, high-mileage vehicle is going to be repaired instead of totaled. It was transported to the body shop today! I go review the damages and... Continue Reading →

Unexpected Summer Losses

In mid-July, I was in a car accident. I was the 4th and final car hit in an intersection accident. I was in a left turn lane behind another car. After the light turned green, an elderly woman coming the other way, ran the red light and t-boned the sedan in the intersection which spun... Continue Reading →

Shifting and Letting Go

I'm trying to get things sorted out and easier to sort through for when I'm gone. I know it's not something most people want to think about let alone do, but I find that it's far better to plan and not leaved your loved ones chaos. I was left chaos, and swore I would never... Continue Reading →

The Bitter and the Sweet

I teach at an blended learning alternative high school. It's the kind of job that, at times, will break your heart and, at times, will make your heart sing. Sometimes in the same day. Today was one of those days. I had the family of a student I had in my class all this past... Continue Reading →

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