I’m figuring out what I need to do to craft the life that envision for myself. It’s been interesting. I’ve had successes in some areas and not in others. Now, I’m looking at what makes one goal a success and another fall short. Oddly enough, a scene from a movie about rehab came to mind. The movie was “28 Days” with Sandra Bullock and Viggo Mortensen. In the scene, Eddie is teaching Gwen how to throw a baseball. He has her focus on what she’s doing, and points out that what happens at the plate is someone else’s job. It’s interesting and definitely applicable to where I am now.
I have a vision of what I want, but the times I get derailed seem to be when I’m focusing on the end game and not on the hear and now. For the first time in my life, that tired cliche of “one day at a time” is beginning to make sense. Instead of planning out a year, or a month, or a week; it seems that I need to make what I do today count.
I’m finding that having a game plan and setting intentions for the day is a tool I need to have. I’m interested in making today better. I’m interested in know what I’m going to do the next day and what purpose each activity will serve. I’m interested in making the small, incremental adjustments day by day right now, and the faith to know that next year is someone else’s job. I’m finally getting that when I do experience anxiety, I alternate between engaging in frantic activity and shutting down. It’s in these moments, that I need to know – really deep down know on a visceral level – that my goals are already manifesting; I just need to keep the focus on what I’m can control right now, on the small square of Earth where I reside. I do that and my home, my tribe, my true purpose with unfold.
Here’s the clip from 28 Days: