A lot of my healing journey needs to be physical. Most of my adult life, I’ve struggled with obesity. I”m still far too close to my top weight which I am horrified at. I feel bloated and stiff. My old tricks don’t seem to work any more. Well, I am in my 50’s. I don’t mind finding grey hairs, I just didn’t expect that my hair would change texture and the wave would be different. It’s coarser now and curls more. My sleep patterns seem to be changing too. Now, I’m often not sleeping well the first half of the night. I toss all the covers off and wake up freezing. It’s to the point where I love it when I wake up warm with my blankets still covering. It feels luxurious. I’m even waking up early. I don’t want to be awake though, so I usually lay in bed and scroll through my phone. At times, I fall back to sleep, but then get woken up out of the middle of a sleep cycle and have to drag myself out of bed, often missing breakfast and coffee as I start work. Not only is it becoming increasingly frequent, it means I have no energy by the end of the day. I don’t mind waking up to get going early when I need to. But on my own? And early, early? Seriously?